Rogeeii’s version of Gwiyomi
My brother said it looks haggard and it doesn’t suit. Well, honestly, yes. Duh, I’m only using a fucking low quality webcam and I’m not wearing make up because I have allergies. But I don’t care. I like how I smile at this video. It makes me smile looking at myself smiling. LOL XD Does that even make sense? Anyways, I’m satisfied with it so yeah… :D
I tend to fall for a guy’s smile then decides to stay base on his eyes.
Day 1: Your ultimate bias
Others say that there’s a lot of fish in the sea. Yeah it’s true. But there’s only one fish that I like. And that fish is Lee Donghae.
He’s not perfect. He has flaws. He gets shy easily. He forgets his own wallet when going out. Even misspelled his own name. He’s childish (or rather playful), sweet, caring, and clingy (not touchy, it’s kinda different). There’s a lot of composers out there, and let me be honest they’re better than this man. But I prefer his compositions at some point because he doesn’t complicate what he writes. It’s simple but has a lot meanings into it. I love his songs and voice. He dances like he wants to destroy the stage but the he also has his own way to dance routine (LOL you know what I mean). He loves children and pets which is a very cute thing for a guy to possess and for a girl to fall in love with. He’s sincere and always gives me the feeling of peace. Especially when I look into his eyes. For me, his asset is either his eyes or his forehead. I just think that he’s sexier when he reveals/show his forehead. I love him ‘coz he’s him. No more further explanation….*it’s too much to be able to put it into words*
Other people can’t help me neither my own family. They might know what I’ve been going through or even understand it. But they can never help me get through this. I’m all alone in this fight. And it’s just me who could end this up. I’m on this alone from the very start since I was born, I’m on this along till the end. Other people might think I’m depressed and out of my mind. That I need psychiatric help. Yeah, I might need psychiatric help but I’m definitely not depressed nor just looking for affiliation. I also don’t have any disorders or abnormalities. I’m fucking normal for God’s sake. I’m just weird. Being abnormal and weird are two different things. But neither them couldn’t do anything. Maybe there’s just things in this world that meant not to be understand. I couldn’t even understand my own self. How are they supposed to help me if I couldn’t help my own self. The only thing that I’m afraid of is when myself gives up on me. I almost lose myself last night. And I don’t know if that wouldn’t happen ever again. It’s just sad, that even if you wanted to ask for help, no one could ever be there to help you. They couldn’t do anything. It’s just sad that when you’re almost there to open up, they resist to hear you. They wouldn’t want to hear and listen. I’m misunderstood. But I wouldn’t want to explain because that would make the situation even worse. Why explain when you already know that it wouldn’t go anywhere?
Sometimes, I just don’t want to be me anymore. Its just so tiring. Like I want to take a rest. Even just for a day. I don’t want to be me for a day. I want to forget that I’m Rogelene. I want to just stop and breathe. But I don’t know if I even have the right t do that. Can I?
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Crying makes you ugly. I swear. My eyes are swollen and I don’t know if I could face other people after this. Well, it’s better to face other people than to face my own family. Shit. This life is as fuck as hell. And I just almost killed myself last night. Good thing I didn’t really do it. Funny, right? I can’t afford to give up even if I wanted it so badly. Last night’s tears have faded through the darkness and no one knows. No one.
Valentine’s Day with JERCY!
Thanks guys! I may not have a boyfriend to celebrate Valentine’s with but at least I have crazy, beautiful, caring, faithful, open and worthy friends like you! Saranghae~~ <3
JERCY during break time in Accounting.
Tagal na nito. Mahaba pa ang buhok ko nun tas wala pa akong bangs. Nakaka-miss yung buhok ko date. And in fairness, ang gaganda namen dito. Si Yvette lang ang ayaw magpa-picture. LOL XD Kasi, siya yung nagpi-picture. HAHA
My dad just told me not to speak or say anything when I’m being scold and just listen. Yeah, he’s right. ‘Coz doing that would be disrespectful. But hey, if I did that, I’d be swallowing all of their shits like I’m a shit too. I’d be plastic. Or maybe, I’ll hear them but none of their words would sink in. Like it would just get in my right ear and exit on my left. And I think that’s more stupid than letting them know what you think and what you feel.
January pa lang pero kung maka-ulan parang June na. =.= Nu ba yan?? Giniginaw talaga ako.. Leche!